mayfield_logs | a falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eye

Skip to Main Content

a falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eye

Who: The Doctor and River Song
Where: River's House and the TARDIS
Why: Discussing the droning of the Ponds
When: Tonight.

[The Doctor feels nothing. He feels everything. He feels like time has stopped since he noticed Rory's droning. A sense of loss that's shaken him deep to his core and penetrated his very soul. He feels heavy, weighted down from grief.

And he hates himself for feeling that way. Amy and Rory are safer back home, away from this town, off to build a life together. A happy life. A life without him. He tries to swallow his lonliness. But it stews inside of him like a poison.

He finds himself wandering in the TARDIS, flipping levers. But she's a smart old girl and she takes him exactly where he should be right now.

With River. The TARDIS appears in her room.]

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

...Rory's gone.

[He shakes like a leaf.]

[ She wasn't even aware he was here in the first place, so she just nods curtly. ]

I'm sorry.

...I know, but you shouldn't be. I shouldn't be.

He gets to go home. Be happy for a bit. Before I go in and mess all that up too.

Now what good will that kind of talk do you?

You know what I mean.

[Sniffs loudly.]

[ She shakes her head slightly, lowering her voice. ]

You have to let it go, love.

They're my best friends.

I can't.

[How can he let himself off the hook like that? The self-hatred comes so easily now.]

You need to.

Yeah, sure, I'll just erase it from my mind. Snap my fingers, forget it all. Why ever didn't I think of that before.

[He doesn't mean to snap.]

[ She frowns, withdrawing slightly from him. ]

You know that's not what I meant.

[He slumps, his anger dissipating.]

I know.

[ She laughs gently, nudging him with her elbow. ]

If only it were that easy.

Hn.

[He collapses onto the bed.]

[ She remains sitting, reaching to stroke his hair. ]

You'll be alright.

Myself be damned. Will they be alright?

[But he curls up at her touch anyway]

We both know they will be.

Sounds like spoilers to me.

I don't even have my journal anymore, how am I supposed to know?

So it's lies then.

[ With mock offense: ] Are you calling me a liar?

That's exactly what I called you, River Song. Pay attention.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only