another year has passed and I'm alright; (OPEN)

[gandere]

WHO: Rin Tohsaka (gandere), Shiki Ryougi (ryougi), and a few of her close CR. (Will add character names when they tag in)
WHAT: Day one of the event
WHERE: Throughout Mayfield
WHEN: January 25th
WARNINGS: Angst. Gore.

The first time Rin notices something is Most Definitely Wrong is when she awakens in the night due to a stab wound in her stomach. No one had entered the home, she knows this much, and it bothers her to think that the only person who could have done such a thing is her Servant. This sort of wound is nothing for her though as she heals it easily.

Later on in the morning she's tired of the phone ringing and leaves the house. There's no point to going to school after the incident of the night before. No, she'll sneak in tomorrow if she has a chance and spare herself from getting droned. After the night before, there's no way she can risk it.

Visiting with a couple of individuals is key to survival, so Rin will make her way towards the homes of those she knows. It's a simple gesture that will save herself a lot of trouble later on down the road. The knowledge to know who stands where is important and she doesn't stop despite what sickness creeps up on her.

It's when she's surveying the changes to Makeout Point does she start to feel feverish, the nausea overwhelming her. This feeling is easily recognizable as radiation poisoning. Unlike before though, she has her full abilities and is able to overcome it. Purging it was a simple matter, but now she's just full of confusion.

During the evening is when her condition worsens.

OOC; Rin's traveling the neighborhood and workplaces of those she's considered close to in preparation of what may happen. If your character can't handle her with a giant hole in her chest, please tag prior to the evening prompt. If you don't want to come up with a setting, just do a blank tag. I'll fill in the blanks.

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[answerer_sword]

...

[It is certainly tempting. If she gave the order, then she could keep Lancer forever. It would be like fulfilling her childhood dream.]

[But then how much better would she be than those beings that she disdained as evil? And Lancer, how would he view her if she gave him that order? He would certainly follow it, but it would certainly hurt him to kill his former Master, especially since he had chosen the girl out of all possible candidates that could have become his Master. From her interactions with Lancer and Tohsaka, she could see that the two were close friends.]

[Lancer...would certainly hate her if she gave him that order.]

Yes, it would indeed be simple. However, I would have to waste a command spell for that. It would also greatly strain my relationship with Lancer. Besides, you have saved my life more than once, so just for that, I would not harm you until after I have repaid my debt.

[There is also the fact that she pities Tohsaka now, having finally realized what the girl's life in Mayfield must have been like.]

So no matter how tempting it is, I would return Lancer to you lest he chooses to remain with me for whatever reason.

[gandere]

[ Lancer, admittedly, is all Rin has to rely on. A man who's never betrayed her or let her down was one worth keeping. Yet, their relationship has evolved beyond that of Master and Servant. She cares for him more than any other person she's ever been around. Sakura and her had a bit of time together here.. but in actuality, the person who's been around Rin the longest physically is Lancer.

She would never give him up for anything in the world.

Should Bazett be foolish enough to issue such an order, Rin will steal a Servant for herself. She'll steal them, force them to defeat her, and she'll take back her Lancer without question. Then discard of the other as though they were nothing.

Because they were.

Servants were tools she was taught, so it's with this belief she can act so heartlessly. Lancer wasn't a tool. Lancer wasn't a weapon. Lancer was Setanta and Setanta was her's. No one in this town could take him from her. Not even this town could take him from her. ]

Glad you're capable of common sense then.

[answerer_sword]

[She almost bursts out in laughter. Tohsaka is talking to her about common sense.]

Common sense is a requirement in my line of work.

[gandere]

Really? Strange that you don't display it more often. I was starting to think you were an idiot.

[answerer_sword]

What?

[She crosses her arms and glares at Tohsaka.]

Do you have any idea what you're talking about, Tohsaka?

[gandere]

Often I do. I question if you have any idea what we're talking about.

[answerer_sword]

How have I ever given you that indication before, Tohsaka?

[She wonders if the girl is trying to antagonize her.]

[gandere]

All the time.

[ Spoiler: she is. ]

[answerer_sword]

...

[It takes a while to come up with a good reply.]

How?

[How much had Toshaka misinterpreted their interactions?]

[gandere]

That's just the impression you give. You can't help it.

[answerer_sword]

...I do not believe I give that impression to anyone else.

[Unfortunately, she did. It is just that she never notices it.]

[gandere]

Well then you probably just have it against me. That's not too hard to believe, right?

[answerer_sword]

[She sighs and shakes her head.]

Tohsaka, I have never had anything against you.

[Only, she did, just a little bit. After all, it was hard not to be jealous when Tohsaka was Lancer's Master.]

Even if I did, it does not matter. You are Lancer's Master and my ally. I will protect you and work togther with you. You can trust me to that extent.

[gandere]

It's hard to believe that honestly, Bazett. [ Placing a hand on her chest, she tries to remain calm despite the pain that was starting to overwhelm her. ] I have the man who believes you to be his Master as my own.. anyone would be bitter over that, you know?

[answerer_sword]

Perhaps I am.

[Lancer was the man she loved, and yet he was serving another. For the first time, she decides to just admit her own jealousy.]

I...do wish to be Lancer's partner sometimes. But Lancer...as I said, he chose you to be his Master. And he would certainly be sad if you died or became injured. At first, I thought that no matter who or what you were, I would protect you just because you were Lancer's Master. Now that you have saved my life, I also need to protect you because we are allies and I am indebted to you.

[She stop right here, probably because she realizes she has said enough. She does not talk about how she now wants to protect Tohsaka because she sees the girl as a lost, lonely child. It would certainly offend Tohsaka ever more.]

[gandere]

[ Maybe Rin can show a bit of herself while she's this injured. After all, it's due to that man she feels this pain in her chest as she forces a tiny laugh. ]

You don't have to worry about equivalent exchange, Bazett. If it makes you feel better to hate me, then do it. Just know.. I won't give Lancer up ever. Even if he wants to leave me behind, I'm not going to let him. He's mine.

[ In more ways than one she doesn't say.

And that's when it hits it. Finally it strikes her hard. ]

I should try to find him.. Lancer..

[answerer_sword]

I can't hate you, Tohsaka.

[Because every time she looks at the girl now, she wonders how much Tohsaka has suffered in Mayfield after being here for possibly years. Even if she feels jealous or frustrated now, it will always be tempered with pity.]

Yes, perhaps you should. Or is there anything else we need to discuss?

[gandere]

You can and you probably will. I don't mind it terribly. If I want to impress you, I will.

No. I don't think there was. If you see Lancer, will you tell him I'm looking for him then?

[answerer_sword]

[When she looks at Tohsaka again, she can no longer hide her pity for the girl.]

No, I can't.

[The reason is left unsaid, but it should be obvious.]

Yes, I will do my best to inform Lancer that you are looking for him.