For a moment Ed is very, very quiet. All he can hear is the sound of his own staggered breathing, the blood pounding in his ears.

Would Al ever be able to look at him the same way if Ed told him what happened? It wasn't Ed's fault. It wasn't something he ever wanted to do. It made him sick just thinking about it. But he still hurt Hawkeye. He still.... he still killed someone.

"It happened a little less than a year ago. It's been a long time and..."

He shakes his head, looking away. "Look, I don't want to add anything else to the hell you've already been through here."